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Serendipity- No More Divides [PART THREE (1/3)]

July 30th, 2009 (05:11 pm)
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Okay, finally! Part three! YAY! The three chapter epilogue. Atleast i think its three chapters. could be four. But thats at the most. Anyways, i've got to say- HOW QUICK AM I? I'm proud of myself, for once, i've managed to get stuff out quickly. Two fics in a day. I know its not much, but its more than i manage!

i'm really tired now, i've been awake all night, so i'll just post on here and finish off later. So i guess only my F list will see this.

Okay, here it is- again, sorry for the lack of LJ CUT- LJ is screwing up big time!

Title:  No More Divides [PART THREE(1/3)]

Chapter: 1 of 3

Series: Serendipity

Author:[info]2nd_toshikoWord Count: 1,715 words

 

Rating: PG 13

Character(s): Jack/Ianto, Gwen, Tosh, Owen, John Hart.

Genre(s): Gen, Retcon fiction, romance, angsty fluff

Warning(s)/Spoiler(s): MAJOR for TW S2 ‘Exit Wounds’, ‘Fragments’, and TW S1 ‘Cyberwoman’.

Disclaimer(s): I do NOT own Torchwood OR Doctor Who, nor do I own the characters, pairings, storylines etc. They are the sole property of the almighty BBC, the Torchwood/Doctor Who Production Team and (unfortunately for us) Russell T Davies. No money is being made out of this, and I’m still a student, so please don’t sue me- I have NO money!

 

Summary: ‘Ianto…’ Jack breathed. Ianto didn’t answer, and wouldn’t stop shaking.

Let me alone, let me go. I can’t feel…for you, I don’t want to feel anything again. Not after this. Not ever, not ever-

Jack took his coat off. It was wet, but it was a warmth. He wrapped it around himself and Ianto.

 

Author’s Note: Part Three is the epilogue of this series, and is about 3 chapters long. This is the first chapter.  Please remember that this series is now officially AU, and TW S2 ‘Fragments’ and ‘Exit Wounds’ NEVER HAPPENED. Thank you, and comments are very adored! BTW, I told you guys I’d be faster now!

 

 

 

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RECAP: John and Jack find Ianto from where Gray had forced John to bury him, and they get back to the Hub to find that Gray has killed Ianto’s mother. Ianto is thrown into turmoil and reverses the retcon effect and remembers everything. From there, this carries on.

 

 

PART THREE: THE EPILOGUE

 

 

Chapter One

 

 

 

 

Ianto looked straight at Jack. ‘I remember everything’.

 

Jack opened his mouth to say something. Anything, something, everything. But before he could begin, Ianto whispered:

 

‘Mam….’

 

The team looked at the woman limp on the floor, cold and…

 

You come near my family, and I swear, I’ll be the death of you.

 

So long ago, for Jack, Helen had said that to him.

 

I’m the death of her.

 

Suddenly, there was a small click as John appeared from behind Jack and automatically opened the cells. Without Jack realising what had happened, a blur sped past him and wrapped Ianto in her arms.

 

Ianto howled out loud and fell to the floor in Gwen’s arms. She hugged him tight as they fell, as the Welshman fought to get out of her arms.

 

Jack stood there, helpless and unable to do anything. His body ached to close itself on Ianto, to hold the man as he wept. But, he supposed, Gwen did it better.

 

 

‘I lost Lisa to Torchwood,’ Ianto sobbed. ‘I think I lost her here!’

 

‘Ianto, I know, I know’ Gwen soothed, while tears struck her face.

 

Ianto became a massive force on her, indignant.

 

‘I mean, right here! On this spot!’

 

He was right, Jack remembered, it had been around here…

 

Images of a half-converted Lisa filled Jack’s mind, Ianto’s bewilderment at when bright red spots appeared on her body as she was shot again and again, his despair as he saw Tosh, Owen, Gwen and Jack at gunshot.

 

The horror of it all sank like bile in Jack’s stomach.

 

‘I’ve lost everything, everything here, get me out, LET ME GO!’, Ianto yelled uncontrollably.

 

Tosh and Owen stood in the cells; Ianto’s meltdown seeming unnatural and horrific to them. Out of the whole team, he’d held on when Lisa died, Canary Wharf, cannibals- seeing him let go like this seemed horrendous, unreal.

 

John Hart didn’t know if he’d seen this kind of emotion before. Certainly not in a long time. It seemed to him that he didn’t know what to do with his…hands. Jack looked like he could crawl on the floor and just cry with the man.

 

The scary thing was that John had never seen him like that before.

 

As Ianto cried, Jack’s arms twitched, his face became completely neutral. John sensed a change in the atmosphere.

 

This could never be good.

 

‘Where are you going, Jack?’ Gwen called, as Jack began to walk out the lower floor. Ianto watched his lover walk away, and cried harder as he remembered the last time he’d talked to him, before all of this.

 

I’m too selfish to die…This way, no doubt about it Captain, I’ll find you again…

 

‘Where you going?’ Gwen asked again, her voice rising. ‘Come back!’

 

‘Jack!’, Owen yelled after him.

 

None of them made any attempt to go after the man, though.

 

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‘I’M HERE!’ Jack yelled out of the blue, running up the steps leading to his office. ‘Gray, please…I’m here, stop this!’

 

He wasn’t too surprised when he felt the receiving end of a gun barrel at the back of his head.

 

‘Move, and I shoot’, his brother said. Gray jerked Jack’s head until he was facing him. ‘Hello, dear beloved brother.’

 

‘Gray, listen to me here’, Jack tried. ‘You’ve got to stop this.’

 

‘Always the favourite. The favourite son’.

 

‘Gray- listen. I can help you…’

 

Jack screamed in pain as Gray expertly twisted his head, breaking his neck. He was dead within seconds.

 

Gray watched with satisfaction as the older man sunk to the floor. Finally.

 

He stalked towards the door, when he noticed on the desk….

 

A large box sat there, half open, obviously ancient, yet looked intricate enough to be manufactured beyond the 21st century.

 

He picked it, surprise momentarily taking him as sand fell out. Lots and lots of it. He sniffed it, a shiver going down his spine. It smelled like…

 

BANG.

 

Gray fell to the floor, the sand spraying everywhere as Jack wrestled him. Something wet fell on the younger man’s face.

 

‘I tried to save you,’ Jack rasped, as he pulled out some pads from his pocket. ‘I never gave up on you, I never forgave myself…’

 

‘You’re meant to be dead!’ Gray bellowed, hitting Jack’s chest, but the older man was stronger, bigger. ‘You’re, you’re…’

 

‘I can’t die.’ Jack whispered. ‘It’s a penance, for everything I’ve done. I’ll take it because I have to.’

 

Gray zoned out for a moment, before pulling Jack’s head to his. Their breaths mingled, and Jack froze.

 

‘I’ll never forgive you’, Gray hissed. ‘Even In the darkness- I’ll never forgive you’.

 

Jack breathed deeply, closed his eyes, and pushed the chloroform sodden pad on Gray’s mouth.

 

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It was nice here, in a way. Quiet. Calm. No one speaking. Just a darkness that drew him closer-

 

‘Wake up!’

 

No, leave me be-

 

‘Jack!’

 

Jack opened his eyes. He was wet, drenched in his own blood, and some tears and sweat. He was curled around Gray’s lifeless body.

Jack froze. ‘No, I didn’t, I couldn’t have-‘

 

Arms weaved around Jack’s waist, hugging him on the floor.

 

‘I’m sorry’.

 

Jack turned around to see John. Tears streamed down Jack’s face.

 

‘I didn’t…did i?’ Jack whispered. ‘I didn’t….did i?’

 

John looked at Jack for the longest time, as if trying to pull something out of his head. Jack wouldn’t be surprised if he was.

 

‘No’, John said, carefully. ‘You just…suffocated him. I…did it. Killed him. It had to be done.’

 

Jack let out a breath, his body shaking, weeping.

 

‘It had to be done, Jack.’

 

Jack wept quietly, stroking Gray’s forehead, cold and solid. He nodded.

 

John still hadn’t let go of his waist. ‘get up’.

 

No.

 

‘Get up, Jack’.

 

Jack faced him again. ‘I need to…I need…I need-‘

 

John kissed his forehead. ‘I’m sorry. I know…what you’re thinking.’

 

‘I let you go. Gray let you go. Why are you still here?’

 

John pulled him up, his face tired.

 

‘I let you know when I figure it out. Maybe my third chance will be the one that sticks.’

 

He looked almost kindly at Jack.

 

‘I’m sorry for…your losses’, he said, and hesitated. ‘You might want to…’

 

He breathed. Jack was looking at Gray, still sobbing silently.

 

‘You’re not the only one hurting’, John said, almost inaudibly.

 

Jack jerked his head towards the door.

 

Ianto.

 

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They’re packing her up. Like a package. Packaging. Mam never liked body bags, she always said she felt sorry for road victims…

 

They’re just going to lock her up in storage, like the others. Like Suzie and Alex and all the others in there.

 

She’s just another Death By Torchwood.

 

Kill me. Kill me now. I’ve got nothing to live for.

 

 

 

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Jack stepped into the hazardous lower floors, watching as Gwen wrestled a weevil back into its cell with a broken arm, as Tosh tried to regain some order, as Owen cleaned up…Ianto’s mother.

 

The younger man was shaking, hard, sitting in a corner. He wasn’t crying anymore. Just shaking. His heart breaking.

 

Jack heard fire extinguishers as he walked, silently, towards the man, muttered words and weevil growls harsh on his ears, even while his heart pounded.

 

A simple device had killed so many. It was only irony that the ones it had hurt the most where the ones that were alive, breathing.

 

‘Ianto…’ Jack breathed, standing above the Welshman. Ianto didn’t answer, and wouldn’t stop shaking.

 

Let me alone, let me go. I can’t feel…for you, I don’t want to feel anything again. Not after this. Not ever, not ever-

 

Jack rapidly took his coat off. It was wet, but it was a warmth. He wrapped it around himself and Ianto, both of them huddling as the team attempted to clear all signs of death.

 

It was never that easy.

 

‘I…’ Ianto began weakly. Jack’s heat was making his head spin. He couldn’t remember the last time he was this close to the Captain.

 

‘I…found you again’, Ianto finished, in a whisper. ‘No doubt about it, Captain, I’ll always…find you.’

 

Jack pulled him closer, and more tears fell down their faces.

 

They’d lost together.

 

They’d lost each other.

 

Now, at least, they could cry, holding each other.

 

TBC

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Okay, that’s it. Enough torture! Janto reconciled, now there’s going to be a lot of making up and fluff. I think after C of E, we need that much. Together, Ianto and Jack will get past all this, mother and brother. So no more Thrace warnings, cave girls and mallets aimed at me, please!

 

Please comment! Chapter two will be up shortly.

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Serendipity- Behind Closed Doors [PART TWO(8/8)]


So finally...The last chapter of PART TWO of Serendipity! i KNOW its been forever since i last updated, and any readers i had must be pissed off with me, but PLEASE read! pretty please?

I promise PART THREE will be up soon, its only three chapters long, and tells of how it all ends.

I'm sorry this isn't under a LJ cut, but for some reason, the stupid thing messes up everytime i do it. sorry!

Title:  Behind Closed Doors [PART TWO(8/8)]

Chapter: 8 final chapter of PART TWO.

Series: Serendipity

Author: [info]2nd_toshiko

Word Count: 1,278 words.

Rating: 15+

Character(s): Jack/Ianto, Helen Jones.

Genre(s): Gen, Retcon fiction, romance, angsty fluff

Warning(s)/Spoiler(s): None, in this one.

Disclaimer(s): I do NOT own Torchwood OR Doctor Who, nor do I own the characters, pairings, storylines etc. They are the sole property of the almighty BBC, the Torchwood/Doctor Who Production Team and (unfortunately for us) Russell T Davies. No money is being made out of this, and I’m still a student, so please don’t sue me- I have NO money!

 

Summary: ‘You’re sorry?’ Helen repeated, her eyes wide with anger. ‘Where did ‘sorry’ ever get anyone in the world? Ianto’s in my house, right now, sedated and hurt. I don’t know how it happened, and you’re telling me he won’t remember the last few years when he wakes up. I don’t even know who you are and I’ve been losing my son to you, all this years, again and again.’

 

Author’s Note: This is the FINAL chapter of Part Two. I promise (and I mean it this time) PART THREE will be up very shortly. Part Three is the epilogue of this series, and is about 3 chapters long. PART ONE can be found in the Masterlist linked below. Please remember that this series is now officially AU, and TW S2 ‘Fragments’ and ‘Exit Wounds’ NEVER HAPPENED. Thank you, and comments are very adored!

 

 

 RECAP: Jack finally finds John and gives him one last chance, letting him get away. Owen figures out the only way to save Ianto is for him to take retcon, so this chapter carries on from there

 

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Chapter Eight

 

Jack walked to the cells quietly and efficiently, knowing what he was about to do.

 

I won’t let it break me.

 

Ianto lay still, in that cell. Jack stood in front of the glass for a while, his courage failing him.

Ianto opened his eyes from where he lay on the small camp bed and met Jack’s glaze. His calm glance matched Jack’s quietly tragic one.

 

‘Jack’, Ianto croaked. Jack flinched, quickly put his hands up, pulling any weapons he had on himself out, and putting them to the floor. It broke Ianto’s heart to see Jack so…scared.

 

‘Jack, I-‘Ianto began, but Jack interrupted, slowly entering Ianto’s cell. The Welshman felt his breath catch in his thought.

 

So close.

Close enough to hug. To kiss.

 

To kill.

 

‘We don’t have much time’, Jack said, quietly. ‘Owen’s already doing his nut in about me being in here at all-‘

 

‘What are you going to do?’

 

Jack found himself unable to look at his lover. They could both hear the water dripping down the water tower above, and the moan of the weevils aside them.

 

‘Retcon’, Jack whispered. ‘It’s the only way. Owen says the Retcon should manage to override any memories you have of me, so…so it’ll stop all this…’

 

‘How much memory’, Ianto said, nonchalantly.

 

‘Everything you have on Torchwood’, Jack answered, his voice low and tortured. His eyes were tired, his body, though, carefully controlled against breaking down.

 

‘So…I’ll forget you?’ Ianto managed. Stupid question.

 

‘You’ll forget me’.

 

‘I see’.

 

Silence. Jack couldn’t stand it.

 

‘You can’t remember me’, he said, stressing every word. ‘Whatever I’m doing, it’s not wrong- it has to be done. I’m not…I’m not-‘

 

‘It has to be done’, Ianto repeated, calmly.

 

‘IT’S BETTER THAN HAVING YOU DEAD!’ Jack bellowed suddenly. Ianto jerked, as if Jack had actually slapped him.

 

All this guilt, all this guilt swarming him, like rotting butter. Smothering him.

 

‘Sorry’, Jack muttered, quietly.

 

‘Of course it is, though’, Ianto said. ‘You’re right’.

 

‘How are you doing it?’ Jack whispered. ‘Do you really hate me this much?’

 

‘What?’

 

‘You don’t…’ Jack began, his eyebrows contorted in what seemed like anger, and sadness. ‘You don’t even care!’

 

Ianto blinked, a sudden desire washing over him. Suddenly, Jack was pulled headfirst towards the camp bed, and thrusted down onto it, his face directly under Ianto’s, who was now above him.

 

‘Of course I care’, Ianto hissed, his breath tantalising and hot. The warmth fell over Jack, who seemed to have forgotten how to breathe.

 

He could kill me now, and I wouldn’t ever stop him.

 

‘Of course I care’, Ianto hissed. ‘I care so much, I bleed for you. I want you so much I hate you. But I don’t want this, for it to be like this- hating you for things that have nothing to do with me, things you haven’t even done, unable to be close to you…’

 

He pulled the older man closer, his lips inches away from the immortal’s.

 

‘But I’m selfish enough to want to live…’cause this way, no doubt about it Captain, I’ll find you again. I’ll remember you, somehow, the way I loved you.’

 

Jack caught Ianto’s face and pulled him to his mouth, finally. Blistering kisses rained on the younger man’s face, his neck, his shoulder…

 

‘Jack’, Ianto gasped. ‘You’re killing me…I could…I could kill you now’.

 

‘You won’t.’

 

‘But I could-‘

 

But you won’t.’

 

Ianto watched as Jack tore his shirt open, kissing and licking at Ianto’s chest, his abdomen, his navel button. Ianto groaned. After a few moments, Jack stopped kissing, breathing hard on Ianto’s stomach.

 

He pulled up, and looked his lover in the face. It suddenly became noticeable that Jack was now crying, silently.

 

‘Jack…’ Ianto whimpered, his chest suddenly heavy. ‘Don’t…’

 

Jack wiped his face, and pulled out two pills from his pocket.

 

‘Take them’, Jack said, as calmly as possible. ‘Forget me’.

 

Ianto considered the Captain, before taking the pills. Jack watched as Ianto swallowed them slowly.

 

‘Thank you’, Ianto said.

 

Jack stroked his face, managing a ghost of a smile. ‘You never know, we might meet again’.

 

‘We will’.

 

‘Its probably best if we don’t’.

 

Ianto grabbed Jack’s neck, and held his head. ‘We will…I’ll find you, somehow…somehow, it’ll get better.’

 

‘I’m never that lucky’, Jack whispered.

 

Before Ianto could say anything, Jack pulled him down onto the camp bed again, kissing him, before moving down.

 

‘Jack…what are you doing?’ Ianto breathed, watching as Jack stroked his skin.

 

The older man reached Ianto’s crotch.

 

‘Etching you to memory’.

 

Eventually, Ianto fell asleep.

 

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Jack sat on a bench near the lake, looking not at the water, but at the small cottage besides it.

 

He felt calm, serene almost. He’d remain like this, he knew, until he reached the Hub, and watched his team work, minus his lover. Then he would break down.

 

For now, he’d be happy for some sanity.

 

Just a little.

 

After a few minutes a small woman appeared out of the cottage, looking straight at Jack. It seemed to him that she did so for a formidable amount of time, before stalking over to him.

 

‘So you’re the boss’, the woman said defiantly, her watery blue eyes so like her son’s.

 

Helen Jones challenged Jack to give an answer.

 

‘I am’.

 

‘You did this to him?’

 

Jack’s voice caught in his throat. Tears streaked down both of their faces.

 

‘What does he do?’ Helen whispered. ‘What does he do for a living? There was once a upon a time when my son used to tell me everything, from what he ate on his trip to Leicester to when he lost his virginity. He never once mentioned you. And now I don’t even know what my son does at work!’

 

‘I didn’t mean to harm him’, Jack croaked.

 

Helen balled up her fist, fury rushing through her veins, and punched Jack in the face.

 

Jack staggered backwards, feeling a bruise build up near his cheek. Somehow, he had expected this.

 

‘I’m sorry’.

 

‘You’re sorry?’ Helen repeated, her eyes wide with anger. ‘You’re sorry? Where did ‘sorry’ ever get anyone in the world? Ianto’s in my house, right now, sedated and hurt. I don’t know how it happened, and you’re telling me he won’t remember the last few years when he wakes up. I don’t even know who you are and I’ve been losing my son to you, all this years, again and again.’

 

Jack’s stomach filled with rats, his heart burning. There wasn’t a moment when it didn’t hurt, his mind stuck in an abyss. He’d never felt so small.

 

‘Just’, Helen started again. ‘Just keep away from him now. I don’t want to see you again, or anywhere near my family’.

 

She forced one last penetrating glaze on the immortal man, before making to walk to her house.

 

‘Stay away from Ianto, or I swear, I’ll be the death of you.’

 

Jack watched after the woman, even as she closed the door to her house, somewhere in there, his lover was sleeping away his memories.

 

Jack turned away, walking to the SUV.

 

He wouldn’t cry. Not now. Later.

 

The tears fell, again.

 

Stay away from Ianto, or I swear, I’ll be the death of you.

 

Somehow, he believed her.

 

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Months later.

 

His throat burned, aching of pent up anger and longing.

 

Ianto was back.

 

Fire surrounded him, his team as the Hub fell to destruction. Helen Jones lay dead, in the middle of it all.

 

‘I remember’, Ianto whispered, his voice like a scream in the quiet. ‘I remember everything.’

 

TBC

 

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PLEASE READ THIS:

 

Sorry for the MAJOR delay in the posting of this. I’ve finally finished writing up the whole series, so the rest will be out promptly. The reason for the lateness is that I’ve been very busy recently, having just moved the America for the next 6 months. The first part of PART THREE will be out latest TOMORROW. I PROMISE. I realise I lost a lot of readers through all this, and for that I’m sorry.

 

Anyways, this is the end of PART TWO, and I seriously urge any readers I have left to re-read the end of PART ONE, which is linked here. Either ways, I will be re-capping in a few sentences in the next chapter. PART THREE goes back to where PART ONE ended, if anyone remembers, that was when Ianto finally remembers everything after having being retconned, which was shown in PART TWO.

 

PART THREE shows how It all ends.

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SERENDIPITY MASTER LIST



SERENDIPITY MASTERLIST.

 Many thanks to Just_being_me08, who beta'd throughout this series, and to seether_79, who made the beautiful banner and serendipity icon, as seen here.

Help me justify the way you live a lie. Please. Somehow. This man, this incredulous man, should in front of him now, amazingly, against all odds that Jack would ever see this lover again.’

 

 


PART ONE:

 The story, as it goes, after Ianto was retconned.

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four


SPIN OFF I

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

 

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PART TWO:

The story, as it goes, of why Ianto was retconned and the events of before.

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

 

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PART THREE: EPILOGUE.

Back to after Ianto remembers what he forgot due to Retcon.

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three


All in all, if anyone notices, this story has been written like a jigsaw, a form of a puzzle. The three parts can be read in any order, and still make sense, chronologically, or as a flashback system etc. For example, if you want to read the series in time order, read from PART TWO, then PART ONE, then PART THREE.
It occured to me to do it like this when a friend pointed out to me that i seem to be 'chronologically disabled'- i can't ever write anything in any time order. This way, i suppose, i've proved to her i can, while also sticking to my non-chronological method!

 

A RETCON FIC. CONSISTS OF THREE PARTS.

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Thirty Years (ONE SHOT)

June 18th, 2009 (09:03 pm)
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I'm Feeling So...: confused


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Serendipity- When Even Doctors Don't Know What To Do (7/8)

click here for SERENDIPITY chapter 6! )

 

‘Oh for fucks sake, Ianto!’ Owen moaned, as he heaved the Welshman towards the cells. ‘You weigh a ton!’

 

‘Jack likes it’, Ianto muttered, deliriously. ‘Said he never did go much for string beans…that’s why he’s never shagged you.’

 

Great.

 

Owen slowed down in his movements. ‘This isn’t what it looks like, you know. We just need to-‘

 

‘I know,’ Ianto said, breathing hard. ‘I’m not safe. Even I know that. Just get me in a cell.’

 

Owen pulled him into the nearest empty cell, ignoring the growls of the weevils nearby.

 

‘Save me, Owen’.

 

Owen froze. ‘What?’

 

The Welshman was looking at him helplessly.

 

‘I’m dead, Owen,’ Ianto spoke, voice low and tinged with fright. ‘I’m not me anymore. There’s something in me that’s turning me inside out, and its killing me. I don’t want to feel like this.’

 

Owen stared, cautiously as Ianto continued. ‘Something inside me wants to hate you all.’

 

Suddenly, Ianto’s face contorted, twisting with pain. Just as Owen was about to open the glass door, Ianto began banging on it.

 

‘Let me OUT!’, he yelled, shaking his head in frenzy. Owen moved back in shock. ‘Jack needs to pay for this, all of this. I’ll do it with my own bare hands-‘

 

Owen banged on the cell glass. ‘Ianto, stop it!’

 

‘I need to, I NEED TO-‘

 

‘IANTO!’ Owen yelled. ‘This isn’t…this isn’t you. You and Jack…’

 

‘Jack needs to pay with his blood’, Ianto spat. ‘He’s damaged me…’

 

Then, again, Ianto’s face contorted, and Owen moved back. Ianto began sobbing.

 

‘Help me, Owen,’ he wept, sliding down against the wall. ‘…Kill me.’

 

Kill me.

 

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John kept his face blank. ‘What device?’

 

Jack faced him, his own face dark as murder. ‘He…he acts like…he knows you. Yan’s acting scared and dangerous, all at the same time…’

 

Jack laughed. ‘I haven’t seen anyone like that that you haven’t made feel’.

 

John looked at him. ‘Caught me’.

 

‘Let him go NOW’.

 

‘Can’t’

 

Jack pulled out his gun, as John shook his head in mirth.

 

‘A gun!’, John laughed. ‘Another bikini cops thing, is it? Dashing men in suits, black coats and gigantic guns…’

 

‘We’re Torchwood’.

 

‘Bikini cops sounds better. And if you liked suits so much, you could’ve just told me’, Jon continued. His voice became more grave. ‘I can’t let him go’.

 

Jacks face twisted in fury. ‘Why not?’

 

John paced around the Captain. ‘He’s tied to the machine. I can’t do anything.’ The look Jack was giving would’ve killed him in an instant. ‘Come on! It was just a bit of fun’.

 

‘You gave this …thing to Ianto?’

 

‘Yup’.

 

‘This was never a funny joke.’

 

‘We never did have the same humour.’

 

‘And for that, thank God.’, Jack turned to walk out of the tourist office door. ‘And I never want to see you again.’

 

‘Breaking the device won’t kill me, Jack’, John said softly. Jack whipped around, his arm point at John.

 

‘I’m giving you a chance!’ Jack bellowed. ‘One chance…again. Final chance. I never, ever want to see you again…never.’

 

John watched Jack walk out, into the Plass, before smiling brilliantly.

‘You were never much good at 21st century Language’, he said to himself. ‘And you never did understand. Gray really is back.’

 

 

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Tosh watched as Owen came up from the cells, looking more disturbed than she had ever seen him.

 

‘He thinks…’ Owen began, as Gwen turned to attention. ‘He thinks he’s someone else, half the time. Either that or he’s had a drastic personality change; because I don’t believe that’s Ianto.’

 

‘What do you mean?’ Gwen asked, quickly.

 

‘He was acting so weird-different. You should’ve seen, there’s no explaining it.’

 

‘I’ll bring up CCTV’, Tosh said, quietly, typing away. Owen stopped her.

 

‘Don’t’, he said, quickly. ‘I don’t want to see that again’.

 

‘What did you mean; Ianto’s not acting like himself?’ Gwen asked. Owen looked thoughtful for a second.

 

‘He keeps saying…he keeps saying something’s changing him. I just know it’s not him…he says what ever made him this way, it had something to do with Jack.’

 

He paused. ‘He wants to kill him. He’s remembering things that haven’t happened…he said that’s what’s making him hate us all.’

 

Tosh gasped inwardly, facing the computer, unable to face her colleagues.

 

‘Then what do we do?’ she said, softly, as she stared at the coffee machine, behind her computer. ‘There’s not much we can do’.

 

That’s when Tosh’s comm. Bleeped, and Tosh looked at Owen.

 

There was only one thing they knew that got rid of memories, good or bad.

 

 

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‘Tosh, I want you to do a surveillance of any alien technology in Ianto’s flat, the Hub, his parents home- I’m sending you the address-, and any other place Ianto might have gone in the past few weeks.’

 

‘Hang on, Jack…I’m getting readings from his flat.’

 

‘Exact location?’

 

‘Sending to you now, it’ll be a minute’.

 

BLEEP.

 

Ten minutes later, Jack was in Ianto’s flat, in Ianto’s suit pocket.

He held the tiny, flashing device in his palm, willing it break to pieces in his glare.

 

‘Got it, Toshiko. Thank you.’

 

‘What is it, Jack?’

 

‘I’ll explain more when I get back. It needs to be destroyed first.’

 

And I need to get Ianto back.

 

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Tosh pulled out his comm, watching Gwen as she walked away, before turning her head in Owen’s direction.

 

He was studiously ignoring her.

 

‘What are we going to do, Owen?’ Tosh asked, calmly.

 

We can’t do it.

 

Owen was still ignoring her, looking thoughtful.

 

‘Owen’. Her voice rang out, this time, loud and crystal, desperate for an answer. Owen , for the first time, considered how close Ianto and Tosh might have been.

 

‘I don’t see an alternative, Tosh, I really don’t’.

 

Tosh looked at him. ‘Don’t do it.’

 

‘Tosh, please, just fuck off-‘

 

‘I can’t’, Tosh breathed, walking to him. ‘Are you REALLY going to retcon him? You think Jack’s going to ever let you? What do you think its going to do to Ianto?’

 

‘I’m not sure its even going to work…didn’t Ianto once say he was resistant?’

 

‘You and me both know he won’t be able to fight higher dosages’, Tosh argued. ‘And it’s still very wrong’.

 

‘Then you be the fucking doctor, Tosh!’ he yelled at her, making the Japanese woman jump. ‘You’d make a better doctor than me any day. I can’t…there’s nothing else I can think of.’

 

He made to walk away before he paused. ‘You and I know he’s deteriorating, how long do you think he’s going to be able to fight whatever it is? Do you want to die?’

 

Tosh stayed silent, and she heard Owen’s voice wobble.

 

‘I’m sorry. It’s all I know to do. I’m going to tell Jack when he gets here, and you better back me up when he’s here, ‘cause Gwen’s going to have my shit with her morality crap’.

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Save me, Jack, do something. Come and get me. I’m dying….I’M DYING.

 

I hate myself.

 

I hate YOU.

 

I need you dead.

 

Why won’t you die?

 

Both you and I deserve to die…

 

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TBC

 

What do you think? I know this chapter was a little shorter than the rest, and I actually intended to add more, but it didn’t seem to work with what im planning next. Please keep reading guys, I know this fic is getting a little…scary! (As I’ve been told).

And please comment- it means a lot and keeps me writing! Thanks for reading!


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Serendipity-You've Become Someone I Don't Recognize (5/6)

June 8th, 2009 (05:47 pm)
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Where Am I?: Home!
I'm Feeling So...: bouncy
On My iPod: Nothing!


Click here for Serendipity PART TWO Chapter 6/7 )

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The Man With The Key (1/1) ONE SHOT

May 17th, 2009 (04:22 pm)
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Where Am I?: Home
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On My iPod: Flat Holm Islands- TW soundtrack


Okay, okay, i know i'm on The Hiatus! But i was doing Maths revision, and this popped into my head ( the book says Maths, and i think 'cyberwoman'??? There is something wrong with me) and i had to write it.

Please bear with me if it isnt the best thing in the world, and a bit all over the place, but i wrote it in under 15 minutes, and now i need to go revise.

Anywho, please read!

The Man With The Key- ONE SHOT FANFIC )

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Torchwood: Where Are The Aliens?- PART TWO.(2/5)

April 15th, 2009 (03:50 pm)
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Where Am I?: Hommmmmmmmmmmme
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On My iPod: Headstrong/ AshleyTisdale


Hi! Sorry this is late again- my LJ cut STILL ISN'T WORKING. anyways, heres the next part of the IM series- please READ! XD


SERIES: TORCHWOOD: Where Are The Aliens?

Title: Part 1:  Owen Vs. Ianto: Jack Isn’t Boss Here, I Am.

           Part 2:   Owen Vs. Tosh: You Act As If You Actually Gave Me A Chance.

           Part 3:   Ianto Vs. Jack: When It’s Me Or Gwen, Sir.

           Part 4:  Owen Vs. Jack: I Know I’m A Genius, But I’m Also Torchwood’s Medic.

           Part 5: Ianto Vs. Jack: Suzie Costello Was Nothing On Capt. Jack.

Parts: 5

Format: IM Conversation.

Characters/ Pairings: Jack/Ianto, Tosh/Owen, implied Ianto/Owen, Gwen.

Rating: PG-13 (References to Sex, contains adult language and swearing)

Spoilers: Part 1: TW S2 ‘Meat’ and ‘Adam’.

                Part 2:  TW S2 ‘Adam’, ‘Meat’, ‘KKBB’ and bits of TW S1.

                Part 3: DW S3/S4, TW S2 ‘Meat’, ‘Adam’, ‘KKBB’, ‘Last Man’. Bits of TW S1.

                Part 4: TW S1 ‘Countrycide’, ‘TKKS’, TW S2 ‘Fragments’, ‘Adam’ and ‘Meat’                       ‘Dead Man Walking’.

                Part 5: TW S1 ‘TKKS’, ‘ End Of Days’, TW S2 ‘Fragments’, ‘Exit Wounds’, and DW S4 ‘Stolen Earth’, ‘Journey’s End’.

               

Disclaimer: Torchwood and characters do NOT belong to me. I torment myself everyday because it is true. They belong to RTD and TW production team, solely. I do not intend to make money out of this, nor will I.

Summary: The Life of Torchwood Through IM conversations: What would happen if Owen could remember the 48 hours from ‘Adam’? After that, it only accelerates- Tosh confronts Owen, Ianto finally takes up Jack on Gwen…When time runs out, and the team loses two of its members, what does it all mean in the end?

 

Authors Notes: This is one of the weirdest things I’ve written. But I want to give it a go. This acts as an IM CONVERSATION version of a gap fic series; filling in between the episodes and some AU ideas. It looks at most aspects of the relationships: Tosh/Owen as well as Jack/Ianto. I love doing IM’s and this is the most complex idea I’ve had for such a format. I hope you all like. This isn’t beta’d- I’m back on my own now.

 

 

Part One linked above ^

 

Key:

 

Lover_Boy: Jack Harkness

 

King_Of_Weevils: Owen Harper

 

Coffee_Master: Ianto Jones

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey: Gwen Cooper

 

Japanese_Princess: Toshiko Sato

 

Part Two: Owen Vs. Tosh: You Act As If You Actually Gave Me A Chance.

 

King_Of_Weevils: What did I tell you? That’s all you do.

 

Lover_Boy: *Frown* what?

 

Coffee_Master: JACK!

 

Coffee_Master: GO AWAY!

 

Lover_Boy: I feel so betrayed.

 

Lover_Boy: And I thought you still wanted to-

 

Coffee_Master: Jack, please. Later.

 

Lover_Boy: you should see the look on Owen’s face. Are you sure you weren’t having sex?

 

[King_Of_Weevils has LEFT the conversation]

 

Coffee_Master: You shouldn’t have said that, Jack.

 

Lover_Boy: Hey! I didn’t do anything! What’s wrong with him?

 

[Japanese_Princess has ENTERED the conversation]

 

Japanese_Princess: Hey! I just saw Owen leave his desk, and he completely ignored me.

 

Japanese_Princess: Does anyone know why he’s not talking to me?

 

Lover_Boy: Sorry. That was apparently me.

 

[Lil_Miss_Nosey has ENTERED the conversation]

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey: Hi everyone! Tosh, are you allergic to flowers?

 

Japanese_Princess: No, why?

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey: Because I saw Owen just throw yours away. You know, the one’s Owen *supposedly* left.

 

Japanese_Princess: he did, Gwen.

 

Lover_Boy: he keeps saying he didn’t. Then why is he throwing them away?

 

Lover_Boy: Did you two fight?

 

Japanese_Princess: *sad* no. For that you actually have to talk to the person.

 

Japanese_Princess: And he isn’t talking to me. For some reason.

 

Coffee_Master: Me neither. Thanks to Jack.

 

Lover_Boy: What? When has Owen ever gotten sick of SEX?

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey: Maybe he’s just jealous.

 

Japanese_Princess: ???

 

Coffee_Master: ???

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey: You know…of relationships. In general. Like Jack and Ianto. Me and Rhys.

 

Coffee_Master: Or you and Jack.

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey:…What?

 

Lover_Boy: No.

 

Lover_Boy: Ianto.

 

Coffee_Master: Never mind.

 

Lover_Boy: Yan!

 

Coffee_Master: I’m tired.

 

Lover_Boy: You are GOING to listen to-

 

Coffee_Master: I think I’ll just go drug myself on panadol and go to sleep.

 

Japanese_Princess: Ianto…

 

Lover_Boy: Yan-

 

[Coffee_Master has LEFT the conversation]

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey: What was that about?

 

Lover_Boy: Never mind.

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey: Damn it, Rhys is calling me.

 

Lil_Miss_Nosey: Gotta go xx.

 

[Lil_Miss_Nosey has LEFT the conversation]

 

Lover_Boy: The way it’s always going to be, in the end.

 

Japanese_Princess: Jack…?

 

Lover_Boy: In the end…they all break my heart, anyways.

 

[Lover_Boy has LEFT the conversation]

 

[Japanese_Princess has TERMINATED the conversation].

 

 

OOOO OOO OOOO

 

[Japanese_Princess has ENTERED the conversation]

 

 

Japanese_Princess: Owen.

 

 

[King_Of_Weevils has been ADDED to the conversation]

 

 

Japanese_Princess: Owen.

 

Japanese_Princess: Talk to me.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Piss off, Tosh.

 

Japanese_Princess: No. Talk to me.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Why are you talking to me, Tosh?

 

King_Of_Weevils: Why don’t you just go and shag another alien?

 

Japanese_Princess: I’m sorry, Owen.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Fuck off.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Hang on.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Why?

 

Japanese_Princess: I don’t know. You tell me.

 

Japanese_Princess: I won’t pretend it doesn’t hurt, Owen.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Don’t you dare get soppy and all girly on me, Tosh.

 

King_Of_Weevils: It won’t work with me. I just want to be left alone.

 

Japanese_Princess: I just want to know, Owen. Then I’ll leave you be.

 

Japanese_Princess: Call me whatever you like, I just want to know why you hate me.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Fuck off, Tosh.

 

King_Of_Weevils: I don’t hate you.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Hate myself, more like.

 

Japanese_Princess: What? Why?

 

King_Of_Weevils: Forget it. Tosh. Go home.

 

Japanese_Princess: Tell me.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Tosh, just give up.

 

King_Of_Weevils: I don’t need your false sympathy, pity, crap, whatever you’re playing at.

 

King_Of_Weevils: It’s not working, so you can stop bull shitting now.

 

King_Of_Weevils: I don’t need you.

 

Japanese_Princess: *hurt* Okay, fine.

 

Japanese_Princess: FINE.

 

Japanese_Princess: I’ll left.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Finally. Don’t forget your coat as you go.

 

Japanese_Princess: OWEN!

 

King_Of_Weevils: Why don’t you just go and hook up with another freezer boy?

 

King_Of_Weevils: I don’t want to be a part of one of your weird fetishes.

 

Japanese_Princess: That’s it! I’ve had ENOUGH!

 

Japanese_Princess: I’ve tried, and I’ve tried, and you just don’t get it, do you?

 

Japanese_Princess: Gwen was right all along, to you, its all just shagging, and sex and no one in the world understands me, isn’t it?

 

Japanese_Princess: She should know, after all, she’s shagged you.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Tosh-

 

Japanese_Princess: What, you going to tell me that you’re oh so icy cool that you can control the way you came when you fuck?

 

Japanese_Princess: You have no idea what we’ve been through, what I’ve done for you, but you just don’t care.

 

Japanese_Princess: You let yourself think the world revolves around Owen Harper, and you never stop to think.

 

Japanese_Princess: What about Ianto? What about Jack? What about Tosh?

 

Japanese_Princess: What about us?

 

King_Of_Weevils: Why are you saying this, Tosh?

 

Japanese_Princess: you’re not the only one who feels alone.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Why do you care? It’s got nothing to do with you, I don’t get it…

 

Japanese_Princess: I’m human, Owen. Just because I like computers and maths doesn’t mean I’m not, you know.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Sometimes…It gets too much. I start to think, start to think that…

 

King_Of_Weevils: If I ever let myself care it’ll just be…

 

Japanese_Princess: What?

 

King_Of_Weevils: it’ll just be another Diane. Never again.

 

Japanese_Princess: Or another Tommy. Another Mary. Another Estelle, another Lisa, another Eugene.

 

Japanese_Princess: We’re all more alike than anyone cares to notice.

 

King_Of_Weevils: Another Adam.

 

Japanese_Princess: What?

 

Japanese_Princess: Who’s Adam?

 

King_Of_Weevils: Tosh, I need to ask you something. Please just…just wait.

 

Japanese_Princess: Waiting.

 

King_Of_Weevils: If I was…different, like, different different…would you still like me?

 

Japanese_Princess: *confused* Different? How?

 

King_Of_Weevils: Like…more geeky. More...preserved. Less cynical and sarcastic, just more clever and philosophical.

 

King_Of_Weevils: How does that change me?

 

Japanese_Princess: I don’t know…I’d always like you, Owen.

 

King_Of_Weevils: As a friend.

 

Japanese_Princess: Yes, yes, as a friend, of course.

 

King_Of_Weevils: You’re lying.

 

Japanese_Princess: What?

 

King_Of_Weevils: Why do you like me, Tosh? You’ve had a crush on me for years. I’m not blind. It’s not that I don’t like it, I just don’t get it. Why…?

 

Japanese_Princess: *blush* I just see you, that’s all. You’re not like me.

 

Japanese_Princess: You don’t keep it all inside a shell and pretend to be someone else, so that you’re liked.

 

King_Of_Weevils: But…remember what I said? About the geeky, less cynical, philosophical type?

 

Japanese_Princess: yes. I just don’t understand.

 

King_Of_Weevils: That’s who I really am, Tosh. I pretend. I don’t like to be me.

 

Japanese_Princess: ---

 

King_Of_Weevils: How do you like me now?

 

Japanese_Princess: Owen, please, stop this. You’re confusing me.

 

Japanese_Princess: Tell me what happened to you.

 

Japanese_Princess: I’m not a stranger on the streets, Owen,

 

Japanese_Princess: Tell me how I can help.

 

King_Of_Weevils: I know what we did in those 48 hours, Tosh.

 

Japanese_Princess: What? How? What happened?

 

King_of_Weevils: We were retconned. I just remember…because I’ve been working on a magic pill.

 

Japanese_Princess: *even more confused*

 

King_Of_Weevils: We did things in those 2 days, that weren’t like us…we were retconned to forget it, but I didn’t ‘cause I’d been working on a anti-retcon pill…I’d been using myself as a test subject.

 

King_Of_Weevils: I guess I’m more of a genius than I knew.

 

Japanese_Princess: Jack will kill you when he finds out.

 

King_Of_Weevils: I think Jack knows. By now. Tea boy would’ve told him.

 

Japanese_Princess: You’ll be surprised what he doesn’t tell Jack, Owen.

 

King_Of_Weevils: …We were so different, Tosh. You were all confident and so, so happy, and I was…alone.

 

King_Of_Weevils: You didn’t need me anymore, and I was alone.

 

Japanese_Princess: Owen.

 

King_Of_Weevils: It just goes to show; Jack was right- whatever you do, no matter how you try to change yourself, in the end whichever road you look at

 

King_Of_Weevils: You’re still very alone.

 

Japanese_Princess: And no one sees you for who you really are.

 

King_Of_Weevils: yes. That too.

 

Japanese_Princess: I see you, Owen.

 

Japanese_Princess: I don’t really think I want those two days back. I mean- flowers? *giggles*

 

King_Of_Weevils: what? WHAT?

 

King_Of_Weevils: stop laughing like that, you’re going to have brain coming out of your nose soon.

 

Japanese_Princess: It just isn’t very you, Owen. That Owen must have been very nice, but I like it better when he comes out to play on rainy days.

 

King_Of_Weevils: You are very strange, Tosh.

 

Japanese_Princess: I know.

 

King_Of_Weevils: It’s who I am, though. That man…

 

Japanese_Princess: But this cynical, annoying idiot that we know is ALSO you, Owen!

 

King_Of_Weevils: *grins* yeah. Sort of.

 

Japanese_Princess: Forget what you saw, Owen. And as an answer to your very long-winded question- no matter how you were or are, I think I’d always like you.

 

King_Of_Weevils: *shuffles* You know this crush you have on me?

 

Japanese_Princess: *bright red* yes.

 

Japanese_Princess: Crush.

 

King_Of_Weevils: if you look back into the convo, I said ‘it’s not that I don’t like it, I just don’t understand it’…

 

Japanese_Princess: You like it?

 

King_Of_Weevils: I understand it now.

 

Japanese_Princess: *blush* okay.

 

King_Of_Weevils: I’m just irresistible.

 

Japanese_Princess: you keep telling yourself that!

 

Japanese_Princess: it’s just Mother Nature taking pity on you.

 

[Japanese_Princess sends a NUDGE to King_Of_Weevils]

 

[King_Of_Weevils sends a WINK to Japanese_Princess]

 

[Japanese_Princess sends a PUNCH to King_Of_Weevils]

 

[King_Of_Weevils sends a I’M SORRY NOTE to Japanese_Princess]

 

 

OOOO OOO OOOO

 

 

[Lover_Boy ENTERS conversation]

 

[Lover_Boy ADDS Coffee_Master to conversation]

 

Lover_Boy: Yan?

 

Coffee_Master: I’m sleeping, sir.

 

Lover_Boy: Without me?

 

Coffee_Master: To anyone in the world but me, that would seem a very weird thing to say.

 

Lover_Boy: Damn it, Yan, talk to me!

 

Coffee_Master: Certainly, sir.

 

Coffee_Master: In the morning.

 

Coffee_Master: All this talking makes me want painkillers.

 

Lover_Boy: The flu hasn’t gone then?

 

Coffee_Master: Nope. Obviously.

 

Lover_Boy: Don’t talk to me like that, Yan.

 

Coffee_Master: How SHOULD I talk to you?

 

Coffee_Master: Should I flutter my eyelashes and wiggle in my tight jeans? Would that do you?

 

Lover_Boy: It certainly would do me, but that’s not the point.

 

Coffee_Master: Oh, really, sir?

 

Coffee_Master: So you’d like me to be Gwen?

 

Lover_Boy: *stricken* that’s not what i-

 

 

[Coffee_Master has LEFT the conversation]

 

[Coffee_Master has BLOCKED Lover_Boy]

 

 

 

TBC- part three.

 

 

 

So what did you think? COMMENTS ARE ADORED!

 

 

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Serendipity- Protection [PART TWO(4/?)

March 12th, 2009 (07:02 pm)
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I'm Feeling So...: shocked
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Okay, this is the next part of Serendipity- NC-17, people! Lots of fluffy smut- my first attempt, so don't go yell at me! xD I've had a bad day today, so i need lots of nice comments to cheer me up *begs*!

Clickity here for Chapter 4 of Serendipity! xD DO IT NOW! )

 

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‘Jack’, Ianto whimpered, giving into the Captain’s tugs. Both men became very aware that they had reached Jack’s office, a slight breeze caressing them in line with the empty Hub below.

 

Jack sighed deeply, and walked over to Ianto, almost hesitant. Ianto stared. How had time done this to them?

 

Breathing deeply, Jack pressed an open palm against the small of Ianto’s back- the waves of electricity between them emitting sparks- Ianto wanting Jack very, very much.

 

‘Yan?’ Jack asked, uncertainly, his eyes growing seductively darker.

 

The man in question pulled at his Captains head without a second to spare, scorching his tongue thoroughly with his fiery lips. Extracting yet another moan, Ianto pressed his way down Jack’s body, rapidly reaching his lover’s crotch.

 

Jack almost fell forwards, clutching at Ianto’s back, his jacket, ghosting against the Welshman’s well defined ass.

 

‘Ianto…please…’ Jack moaned, suspended, wanting. ‘Need…you…’

 

Ianto blinked as Jack entwined his fingers with the hairs on the back of Ianto’s head. Within seconds, Ianto pushed his fingers further towards Jack’s crotch, working his way through the zipper. Jack’s hand’s stroked at the back of Ianto’s thighs, wanting him so badly, gasping as Ianto finally reached his hardness.

 

Ianto looked up at Jack, sensing the desperation, tasting the longing, the anticipation.

 

Because of me. He wants me.

 

Not wanting to disappoint his lover anymore, Ianto began grinding against Jack’s cock, breathless as Jack reacted so rapidly, grinding even harder.

It was enough.

 

Time became a blur, Ianto pulled down Jack’s braces, his shirt and undershirt, kissing at the exposed flesh as he did so. He watched the muscles on Jack’s stomach ripple, lust creeping through spine as he imagined how they would move if Jack was on him, in him.

 

Without a word, Ianto sucked, licked and kissed his way down Jack’s body, pushing his tongue into Jack’s belly button as he worked his way down. Jack writhed at the contact, the violation of his belly button sending shots of pleasure through his brain.

 

God, yes.

 

Ianto rubbed at the material around Jack’s cock, expertly removing it with his teeth, grinning as he knew Jack was staring at him, turned on now more than ever. Jack had never looked so beautiful; his skin shining with the droplets of sweat, breathing so hard his heart could give over. So hard that Ianto pulled away the belt from Jack’s trousers, and revealed a hardness that made Ianto suck in his breath.

 

Purple-red, and straining, Jack felt Ianto stroke it with an ardour that made Jack want to hurl forward and take the man there.

 

‘Ianto…don’t…’ he gasped.

 

His eyes blazing at the beautiful sight, Ianto pushed his lover against the glass wall of his office, and began to fully manipulate Jack’s hardness.

 

Slowly, Ianto trailed a finger down the purple veins, before taking in the length within the caves of his throat. Pleasure bristled through the Welshman as he felt Jack pulse inside his mouth, resisting the urge to push deeper in. Swallowing carefully, Ianto hollowed his cheeks, and began to suck vigorously up and down.

 

Jack pushed at Ianto’s head, willing him on, carding his hair as he watched. He became hot, hot, hotter than ever, and unable to get his eyes away from the erotic sight in front of him. Ianto slid his tongue along Jack’s shaft again, fingering Jack’s balls, rolling them. Jack stifled another moan, concentrating hard on the pleasures running through him.

 

His cock strained in the wet warmth of Ianto’s mouth, as suddenly a heated rush followed his body- one he knew too well.

 

No.

 

Ianto released Jack’s length, sending Jack buckling at the loss of heat, his orgasm cruelly cut off.

 

‘Ianto,’ Jack almost yelled, grabbing for the younger man. ‘What-‘

 

Ianto breathed hard, looking at him. The look of this ignited Ianto nearly finished Jack right there and then; the image of his Ianto so thoroughly overwhelmed by Jack.

 

‘No, not yet’, Ianto said, breathing hard. ‘Jack…’

 

His name rang out heavily in the air, forcing lust on them both, desire ringing in their ears.

 

‘I want you…’ Ianto whispered, barely audible. To Jack, the simple syllables echoed in the small glass room, doing so, so much more.

 

Jack pulled his lover up, putting his hands on Ianto’s thighs as he pushed him backwards towards his desk.

 

‘Jack-‘

 

Jack began to quickly rip off Ianto’s layers: the jacket, the tie, snagging the buttons on the shirt. Working to the rims of the trousers, and then his hands were flush against Ianto’s bare skin, the intimacy of Jack’s roaming hands reddening Ianto’s skin.

 

‘Jack…’ Ianto panted, pushing paperwork off the desk, and sitting on it as Jack licked at his nipples.

 

‘Yes-‘

 

‘Just fucking take me already!’

 

Within seconds, Jack had Ianto against the hard surface of the desk, his hands and tongue working mercilessly against the inner sections of his lover’s thigh, lapping at the skin. Ianto groaned loudly, unable to bare it, rubbing at Jacks neck, willing him to do something.

 

Jack smiled, a glint in his eyes, and he opened a drawer- and pulled out lube. Ianto took an intake of breath as Jack push at Ianto’s legs wider, giving him more space to work with. Jack grinned at Ianto’s rapid breathing, and bent down to kiss the tip of Ianto’s cock, rigidly erect.

 

‘Jack!’ Ianto gasped, nearly sliding off the desk. Jack placed one hand on his hip.

 

Suddenly, Ianto felt a familiar stretch as a lubed finger entered him- desire bubbled over the brim, keeling him over.

 

Jack watched Ianto carefully as he entered another finger, scrapping it lightly against Ianto’s prostrate. Ianto hissed, making Jack’s cock harder than ever. All of a sudden, Ianto sat upright, slamming Jack up against him as he reached down to Jack’s throat to mark him with his teeth, thoroughly. Jack’s eyes widened with surprise as a groan escaped his mouth. Ianto faced Jack, kissing him deeply as he spoke.

 

‘Fuck, Jack’, he whimpered against Jack’s lips, tilting his head so they were nose to nose. ‘I want you so much…I need you in me so much…God, I just want to feel you-‘

 

Jack pushed Ianto gently back on the desk, tracing his stomach and lines on his chest. Rapidly kissing his way back down to Ianto’s crotch, he kissed that spot, before slowly moving away…beginning to prepare himself.

 

Ianto breathed like a man who had only just gained the privilege to; he watched avidly as Jack lubed up his own cock, and smiled at Ianto, moving back up to him. Ianto nearly cried out in anticipation.

 

‘Jack- just do it!’ he yelled. Jack watched his lover writhe hard against the wood, before catching onto Ianto’s legs, and finally easing himself in.

 

Jack was blinded by the sudden heat and earth shattering devotion that Ianto splayed on him, felt as the younger man clinged to him as if for protection against the world. Jack passed the thick ring of muscle and felt lost in Ianto’s pulses, in Ianto in general. The younger man looked so turned on, so secure and completely Jack’s. So completely and definitely.

 

Jack thrusted in deep, making alternate movements, keeping a beat as Ianto mewed at the thrusts.

 

Jack felt his heart beat to the rhythm; he closed his eyes.

 

Beat.

 

Thrust.

 

Beat.

 

Thrust.

 

‘Jack…Jack, Jack, Jack!,’ Ianto began to cry out. Jack pounded harder, picking up momentum, watching Ianto as he was thoroughly taken and made anew; the older man knew this was something he’d never be able to forget.

 

They were coming, both of them, he could feel it.

 

‘Come for me’, Jack breathed fast. ‘Come for me, now-‘

 

Then it was all over; both men came apart, together, pulling at the seams as they cried out in their raged beauty- Jack placed his heart on Ianto’s as they both devoted their strengths to each other. Jack felt the stocky mess between them at where Ianto had come- he didn’t care.

 

Ianto opened his eyes, his vision blurry as he pulled Jack closer to his body; this incredible man, this immortal man that had stolen him so completely. He couldn’t let go, he couldn’t let him go…

 

Jack felt Ianto tremble as he whimpered silently.

 

‘Don’t’, Jack breathed, pressing his lip on his lover’s. ‘Don’t give up on me now’.

 

Ianto composed his face, but allowed the rest of his body to crumble against Jack as they slid of the desk, onto the cold floor. Ianto laced his fingers with Jack’s own, avoiding his Captains glaze.

 

‘I’m scared,’ he said, finally, still not meeting eyes. ‘Can you believe that, Jack? I don’t want to be scared.’

 

He felt Jack’s fingers ghost against his cheek, then rest on his neck.

 

‘Don’t be’, Jack whispered, sending a thrill down Ianto’s spine; the softest word’s ever spoken, Ianto could hardly believe the intensity with which the words hit him.

 

They weren’t forgotten.

 

‘I offer you protection, Yan’ Jack carried on, quietly. ‘Let me protect you. Please’.

 

*-*

 

Jack watched the younger man, his peace evident in his features as he loomed towards sleep.

 

The Captain slid out of bed as quietly as he could; leaving Ianto to beckon the peaceful lands that Jack never completely reached.

Pulling on his trousers and his undershirt, he made his way up the ladder, to reach his office; now in the state of utter mess with clothes. He began searching.

 

5 minutes later, Jack located Ianto’s jacket, and trousers.

1 minute later, he had raided the trousers…nothing. He plunged his hands in the jacket.

2 seconds later, he found himself holding a small metal object, with a flashing blue light.

 

It was just as he thought. Memories.

 

Jack pressed a button hard, an image instantly appearing in his sight. Jack stood up, his hands in his pockets, as the braces slung around his hips, forgotten.

 

‘Well, guess who it isn’t’. Jack muttered.

 

The image smiled, an eerie familiarity which Jack had long not seen. 

 

‘Wow! Didn’t expect to see you so soon! Good times.’

 

‘John Hart’, Jack spat, bitterly, digging his hands deeper into his pocket.

 

‘It’s Captain John Hart, thank you so much.’

 

*-*

 

‘Let me protect you. Please.’

 

Back in Jack’s little room, Ianto unclenched in the camp bed, soothed by Jack’s words…

 

…He’d always be safe in Jack’s shadow.

 

Okay, so this didn’t turn out the way I hoped it would- fluffy smut anyone? This was my first ever attempt at smut, so be kind! It was going to be a spin off, but I couldn’t help myself, and made process with the plot instead. So, that brings me to my usual plug…

 

What did you think? Good? Bad? Let me know, I adore all comments!

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Serendipity- Flight Or Fight [PART TWO(3/?)

March 8th, 2009 (06:27 pm)
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SERENDIPITY- Chapter 3/? CLICKITY HERE! xD )

 

So here goes the routine of Torchwood.

 

‘Tosh, I want you to start up the translating system- find out what we’re talking to, and what about,’ Jack commanded, watching his team scramble into their duties. ‘Gwen- we need to find out some background information; so, any sightings, witnesses, weird accidents…then Retcon them. Owen, prepare the dosages, go with Gwen, any bodies- deal with them; autopsies, whatever. Ianto…’

 

Jack smiled at him, fake pleadingly. ‘Some coffee magic? Please? It’s going to be a long day.’

 

Ianto blinked, falling out of his reverie. ‘Yes, sir’, he muttered, quietly, falling into the shadows.

 

He felt Jack’s glance burning on the back of his suit, singing the fibres in his body. Keep moving.

 

Jack watched Ianto disappear behind Tosh and Owen, and felt oddly deflated. Shaking the feeling away, the Captain turned to look at Tosh as she called him.

 

‘Jack’, she said, distracted by the screen. ‘I think you need to see this…’

 

Jack walked over to her, as the rest of the time huddled around; curiosity getting the better of them all. The screen filled with dozens of foreign symbols; unknown in identity to all but the young technician.

 

‘What am I looking at?’ Jack asked, looking scrutinizingly at the screen.

 

Tosh clicked her mouse, and an image of alien anatomy came up.

 

‘This is a Cideac’, Tosh said, confidently. ‘It’s what they call themselves. The name itself is very worrying.’

 

‘Cideacs…’ Jack muttered. Why was that name so familiar?

 

‘Cide’, Owen said, his rapid brain referencing data. ‘As in, like, suicide or genocide?’

 

‘Or homicide, yes’, Tosh said, nodding at him. ‘Jack- they’re assassins. Intergalactic assassins.’

 

Cideacs.

 

Oh.

 

‘Yeah…’ Jack said, jerking his head up as it finally clicked. ‘I knew I knew the name. Cideacs are, as Tosh said, intergalactic assassins. Their sole purpose is too kill- they’re trained up to be that and nothing else’.

 

Jack paced, as he explained. ‘They don’t exist any other way; it’s in their moral fibre to commit the crimes that others…can’t. They’re simply carrying at a mission.’

 

‘Then that’s a problem for us, then,’ Owen said, breaking in. ‘That means we’re just dealing with the robots, while we have no clue who programmed them.’

 

‘Exactly.’ Jack said. ‘I recognized them from back home…I used to have a friend, in an academy I used to go to…he used to use them, got a bit obsessed, before he realised how much more fun it was to kill your enemies yourself. Then he got obsessed with that instead.’

 

Gwen, Tosh and Owen blinked at him.

 

‘No wonder you’re the way you are,’ Owen thought, out loud.

 

‘They have a tag’, Jack remembered, suddenly, addressing Tosh. ‘Check the captured images for a tag…that usually tells you who the victim is. Translate it.’

 

Tosh frowned, enlarging snippets of the image, and was about to set the translating process when she halted, suddenly. Owen watched her freeze, and then looked at the screen.

 

‘Jack…’ Owen moaned, going slightly pale. ‘Who the hell did you piss off now? Aren’t we enough?’

 

‘What?’

 

‘Let me see!’ Gwen piped up, pushing Owen to a side. Jack glanced around Gwen, for the slightest of seconds. It was funny how his heart didn’t speed up, how he wasn’t surprised.

 

‘Me.’ Jack said, blankly. ‘The Cideacs have been sent, to assassinate me.’

 

‘Why?’ Tosh squeaked, bewildered. ‘Why, why would they…who…?’

 

‘Why, yes,’ Jack muttered. ‘Why is the tag in English?’

 

‘That’s the way I find it…doesn’t that mean…?’

 

‘Whoever wants to kill Jack,’ Gwen put together. ‘Isn’t an alien. They’re from here. And now.’

 

‘Great,’ Owen said, looking at Jack. ‘This is in your hands. What the bloody hell do we do?’

 

Jack patted his Webley in his belt holster. ‘We give them what they want. After all, whoever sent them can’t know me that well, if they don’t know I can’t die.’

 

Everyone went quiet. Tosh fidgeted, not wanting to argue. One more minute, and she couldn’t take it anymore.

 

‘Maybe they can’, Tosh blurted, putting her hands on the desk in a ‘final’ way. ‘Jack, have you thought, that they might have something we don’t?’

 

Jack regarded her. ‘What do you mean, Tosh?’

 

‘We know that there’s nothing on Earth that can kill you’, Tosh started, looking uncharacteristically worried. ‘But what if they have…something, anything…that can kill you? Like Abaddon?’

 

‘Then I’ll come back, Toshiko,’ Jack said, softly pulling at her chin. ‘Nothing ever kills me. I’ve never been that completely blessed.

Owen registered Gwen freezing, ever so slightly, next to him.

 

‘But you said a human made you this way’, Tosh argued, looking up at her boss. ‘How do you know that a human couldn’t take you away from us? Again?’

 

Jack bristled, regretting letting on that bit of information.

 

But something was different. Something was worrying Toshiko Sato, and he couldn’t place it.

 

‘I’m going to be fine’.

 

‘They have a 99% success rate, from what it says here’.

 

‘They haven’t met me!’

 

‘Jack, Tosh may have a point, mate…’

 

‘I’m not saying she doesn’t, Owen!’

 

‘But Jack, Tosh says, and Owen says-‘

 

‘ENOUGH!’

 

Jack looked at his team, bewildered. ‘What’s wrong with all of you today? Out of everything we do, everyday, why are you all so…caught up…today?’

 

He looked at Tosh, still sitting in her chair, looking down. ‘And what’s up with you today? You never argue.’

 

The Japanese woman fidgeted helplessly, before pleading: ‘Jack, really! Listen to me- There’s something going on here…I don’t need a computer to feel it. The assassins are ones available throughout space, and yet someone from EARTH sends them, the tags in English, but they haven’t been sent from anywhere I can trace. Is it wrong that I sense a trap?’

 

The team were silent as they stared at Tosh, her words still stinging the air they breathed. Ianto appeared from beneath, with coffee.

 

Jack paused before speaking, his eyes never leaving Tosh. ‘Okay then…Team…Change in plan,’ He stared pointedly at Tosh, who looked down. ‘This better be worth it. I’m sending Owen, Gwen and Ianto to trace the Cideac, and to contain it-‘

 

‘Thank you’, Tosh muttered. Jack put a finger to her lips, softly.

 

‘But’, he said. ‘We’re going to be here, me and Tosh, monitoring you. Everyone understand?’

 

Owen and Gwen nodded, gobsmacked: Toshiko had, effectively, just changed Jack’s mind.

 

That NEVER happens.

 

Ianto frowned at the coffee in his hands, wishing he could drown in the delicious, smooth liquid. Jack walked up to him, without warning, swiping it out of his hands.

 

Ianto flinched- not that Jack noticed.

 

‘Hmm’, Jack breathed. ‘Perfect as always. Sure you’re okay with this arrangement, Ianto?’

 

The way I’m okay with every other arrangement. It’s not like I have a choice. Just a teaboy…

 

‘Yes, sir’ Ianto said, avoiding Jack’s glance.

 

The Welshman moved past Jack, to follow Gwen and Owen out, missing Jack’s frown.

 

‘Hey!’

 

Ianto watched Gwen and Owen walk out of the cog door, with calls of ‘Hurry up!’, as they left him to it. Tosh carried on typing, busily.

 

Ianto turned to face Jack. ‘You called, sir?’

 

Jack stopped in front of him, his chest inches from Ianto’s, and their noses almost touching.

 

‘Come back here, tonight,’ Jack said, almost breathlessly. ‘Unless you don’t want the company?’

 

Ianto bit his lip, wanting badly to say no.

 

Say it.

 

‘Erm,’ Ianto muttered, realising that this was the third night he had denied Jack. ‘I thought I’d just clear up and go home tonight…’

 

Jack looked at him intently, the blue eyes piercing Ianto mercilessly. Before he could move, Ianto felt a warm hand being placed on the small of his back, as the other hand stroked Ianto’s arm.

 

‘Won’t you tell me what’s wrong?’ Jack whispered, as he leaned closer to Ianto, noticing Ianto’s retreating moves. ‘Why do you…’

 

Ianto registered that he couldn’t hear Tosh typing anymore. ‘Why do I do what, sir?’

 

‘Stop it with the sir. I’m Jack’.

 

‘I know you are, sir’.

 

Jack held back a retort, beginning to realise that something, somewhere, had gone wrong. This wasn’t what he planned to have, after he came back from the Doctor.

 

‘Ianto,’ Jack started, putting a hand on Ianto’s cheek, cupping it tight. ‘You and I….after you get back…we’re going to talk. Is that okay?’

 

Ianto closed his eyes for the briefest of seconds, finding the fingers lingering on his cheek oddly reassuring.

 

It’s been so long…

 

How easy it would be just to let go.

 

‘Yes, sir’, Ianto muttered, quietly. Then he walked, away to the cog door.

 

Jack watched him go, before turning to Tosh. She didn’t pretend that she hadn’t seen the closeness.

 

But she couldn’t mention she didn’t see Ianto’s hesitance, too.

 

‘Give him time, Jack’, she said, quietly. ‘Maybe its just…maybe you’re just moving to fast.’

 

Then she turned back to the computer, feeling her face glow bright red, as the Captain stared at her.

 

How come Tosh understands what I’m trying to say, but Ianto can’t? What is it about me that scares him so much?

 

Maybe Ianto didn’t want to hear.

 

 

 

‘John?’ Ianto called, softly, the minute he was outside the tourist office. He watched Gwen and Owen mount into the SUV. ‘John, where are you?’

 

What is it, sweet cheeks?

 

Ianto bucked back, shocked. He looked around. No one. ‘Where are you, John? I can’t see you…’

 

Ah. I was meaning to explain that- don’t really like all the sciency stuff. You see, when you used to see me, in front of you, I wasn’t really there.

 

‘No kidding.’

 

Don’t mock me, eye candy. You’re not just a pretty face then?

 

‘Shut up, John. Where are you? I need to talk to you.’

 

I thought you would.

 

‘Where. Are. You?’

 

I…erm…You see, the device you picked up, when you found me…It’s called a Mind Manipulator. And don’t do that with your eyes! Its not what you-‘

 

‘-It’s a WHAT? So you’re-‘

 

Projecting from your brain, yes. But that’s all it means, honestly. Trust me, its safer this way. Anyways, you should be thanking me. I just made your job so much easier.

 

Ianto almost stumbled. ‘What?’

 

The Cideacs. Honestly, Jack does just choose you all if you’re pretty.

 

Ianto stood still, blotting Gwen and Owen from his mind. His veins blocked up, ice forming over his chest. ‘What do you mean? How do you know about the…’

 

-The Cideacs? Come on, Earth isn’t that attractive…I sent them here.

 

‘WHAT?’

 

Calm down, eye candy. You don’t look so good when you’re all flustered.

 

Ianto tried not to give in to the urge to punch himself, in hopes that it would hurt John.

 

 

I thought you wanted to get Jack back! This makes your job so much easier…

 

‘No, John. This isn’t what I meant. You can’t do this.’

 

I should have known you’d forget it all so easily. I don’t know how you do it, because I can’t forget. Remember, eye candy, he isn’t who he pretends to be.

 

Ianto clenched his muscles, trying not to scream, panic.

 

This may be your one shot to show him that you’re not just a cute guy in a suit, Ianto.

 

Suddenly, Ianto felt a warm rush around his brain, unclenching his muscles, and almost dimming out the insecurities, bringing back the resentment- the anger.

 

It’ll all be okay, eye candy. Let’s just get rid of Jack…Life will be so much easier…

 

Ianto swayed on the spot. ‘Yes…Life will be…so…much…easier…’

 

With that he walked to the SUV, ignoring the looks that Owen and Gwen were giving him.

 

 

The night before Tommy Brockless is sent back to 1918, in Ianto’s mind:

 

I can feel Jack touching my face, his large, rough hands doing all the right things, even though it’s been so long; too, too long. Warmth surrounds me like hot coffee, the liquid genius eradicating any other worry. How I love to be so close, feel so warm, know I’m wanted…

 

‘…and know that I’ve met those I have, come to love those I do…and I wouldn’t change that for the world…’

 

Jack cares about me, loves me, in his own secretive way. He says those ways, and everything is the past; the Doctor, the months alone, the unsaid explanations- they no longer matter. All that matters is that Jacks here, and that he’s with me, he still needs me.

 

And that we’re not just a novelty.

 

But then it changes, I can feel it…all the warmth disappears, and instead all I can feel is ice, lots and lots of ice, so cold…

 

…Then I look into Jacks eyes, I see him leer at me, and I just know, I just know…

 

His eyes go dark, and he looks at me in that way that I know…

 

…And Jack Harkness is still just after that One Thing, and he hasn’t changed.

 

 

Location: A rural area near Splott.

 

‘IANTO, MOVE!’

 

That’s not how that memory goes…

 

‘IANTO, YOU STUPID PIECE OF SHIT, MOVE!’

 

Ianto dodged the lethal creature in front of him, registering nothing back the long, black cloth that seemed to illuminate his anger with them, with Jack, the World.

 

Jack said he wouldn’t change the world, that night. Because he still had us, me…

 

Cideacs. Owen pulled his gun out, shooting into thin air.

 

It didn’t end like that!

 

Yes it did, Ianto. It’s your memories.

 

But Jack cares about me, John!

 

Your mind knows he doesn’t, Ianto. Sorry.

 

‘Oi! Cloaky!’ Owen yelled, distracting the creature as it stood in front of Ianto. ‘Come here!’

 

And like a gust of wind, the Cideac went after Owen. Gwen grabbed Ianto’s arm, pulling him.

 

‘God, Ianto!’ she breathed, impatiently. ‘What’s wrong with you? Do you want to bloody die?’

 

I have to get them to Jack. Get rid of Jack…

 

Gwen ran to a wall, disappearing behind it, leaving Ianto to fend for himself. He saw Owen and the first Cideac. The other…

 

‘Oh, fuck,’ Ianto turned around, putting his hands around the gun in his pocket. Then he remembered.

 

The Cideac lingered around him, almost evaluating Ianto’s figure. Ianto dropped the gun, and held his arms out, hoping to god that it was a universal gesture.

 

‘Wait! Don’t…’Ianto swallowed. He didn’t want to do this. He really didn’t.

 

Yes, you do, eye candy.

 

‘Wait,’ Ianto said, to the Cideac. ‘I can…I can help you…Listen to me, please…’

 

‘IANTO!’

 

Ianto felt Owen and Gwen stop in their stances, to stare at Ianto. The Cideac in front of him seemed to know what he was about to say, and stood still, in its dark cloaked glory.

 

‘I…I can show you to Jack Harkness.’ Ianto said, swallowing. ‘I know what you want.’

 

 

Location: The Hub.

 

‘What on EARTH is Ianto doing?’ Tosh screamed into the computer, attaching her comm. ‘He’s trying to lead them right here!’

 

Jack stood next to her, swaying. Toshiko cracked away at her computer, livid, so scared.

 

Jack felt his heart thumping beneath his ribs, his eyes going blood shot.

 

Why would Ianto want me dead?

 

‘Jack, do something!’ Tosh screamed, standing up to shake him/ ‘Don’t you understand? Something’s wrong with Ianto!’

 

Please not again. Not now, not when it’s so late.

 

Don’t betray me now, Yan.

 

Jack picked up his comm. ‘Owen….yes…’ Jack said, his words rough, and definite. ‘Shoot them. Now. Don’t argue with me, SHOOT!’

 

Tosh stared at him, as Jack’s face contorted, his anger and confusion clearly visible.

 

‘You can’t just…kill the creatures…’ Tosh muttered. Suddenly, she had two loud BANG noises in her comm., and Gwen’s protests.

 

Silence. ‘He killed them.’

 

No words.

 

‘You made Owen kill two creatures. That weren’t at fault.’

 

Silence.

 

‘Speak to me, Jack.’ Tosh said, softly. She flinched as Jack turned to look at her, his eyes red with fury and-

 

‘What am I supposed to do?’ Jack hissed at her, grabbing her by the arms. Tosh tried to wriggle out, shocked at Jack’s sudden move. She felt his hot breath, coming faster and faster, his body clenching up; ready for battle.

 

Jack let go of the woman.

 

‘You told me to save myself, Tosh’ Jack said, quietly, yet dangerously. ‘Don’t ever tell me, again.’

 

He tapped his comm. ‘Owen? Bring Ianto and Gwen back to the Hub. And tell Gwen i really don’t want to hear her speeches today.’

 

 

After Jack left for the Doctor, in Ianto’s mind:

 

I feel so alone. So, so alone.

 

The dust is the only thing among my midst, and I can’t think. I can’t stand it anymore, this isolation. Everything reminds me of him.

 

I walk into Jack’s office, and I see more dust- I feel my face crumble.

 

I couldn’t take care of him, so he left me, left us. For whatever it is. Tosh looked at the CCTV, and she reckons that MAN has taken him. That ALIEN. The Doctor, the one Torchwood London told us was a monster- the one Torchwood Cardiff taught me was harmless. In some way, the Time Lord became a monster to me anyways.

 

Because he took Jack from me. He made Jack forget me.

 

And now I’m alone, with all his things that I’ve left to dust. I can smell him on his chair, as I sit on it. His laughs still vibrate within the walls of this office, this silent, SILENT office.

 

Someone help me, help me now. I feel so small, so…alone. And I can’t get out of it; I’m falling into a dark abyss.

 

But I believe Jack’s coming back. He’s coming back for me. One day, I don’t know when or how, he will.

 

He always promised that he never forgot anyone who truly cared.

 

I pick up a whisky glass of his, and lean it against my cheek. So cold, but so pure. A memento. Almost, of him.

 

….Then I look out of the office, to the quiet of the empty Hub…

 

…HE ISN’T COMING BACK.

 

He won’t come back. He won’t come back. Not for me. For Gwen. Or the Doctor. Someone else.

 

Just not for me.

 

Never for me. I’m never going to see Jack again…

 

 

‘I want everyone out now!’ Jack yelled, leaving Owen, Tosh and Gwen confused.

 

Gwen put a hand on her hip. ‘Don’t think you can just get rid of us like that, Jack! We need to understand! What happened with Ianto-‘

 

‘Get out’, Jack said, quietly. Tosh walked, fast, over to Gwen, putting an arm around Gwen’s.

 

‘Really,’ Tosh hissed in her ear. ‘Lets go. Trust me, just leave him…’

 

‘No!’ Gwen yelled at her. ‘Jack! Ianto, he just tried to bail out on all of us! I want to know what’s GOING ON!’

 

‘Jack!’ Owen bellowed, above Gwen. ‘The Cideacs-‘

 

Jack had had enough. ‘SHUT UP!’

 

Quiet.

 

‘I want you all out’, Jack said, measurably. ‘Go home, drink wine, go out on the pull, go shopping. Just leave it to me.’

 

‘But, Jack!’

 

‘GWEN! GO! NOW!’

 

A few mumbles followed, as the team scrambled out from the cog door, leaving Jack breathing hard, and fast.

 

Giving himself seconds- minutes- to calm down, hold back the emotions, Jack walked down to the kitchenette.

 

 

 

Ianto stood, shaking as he washed out cup after cup. His hands glowed red under the hot water, the liquid splashing on the sleeves of his suit.

 

‘Something’s wrong with me. It hurts. Help me.’

 

Nothing’s wrong, eye candy! I can’t believe this…

 

‘I can’t do it. I won’t do it. Jack…he’s just so…’

 

I can’t believe he has you this mesmerised. He can’t be that good in bed. Well. He is, but-

 

‘Can you hear me? I WON’T DO IT. My memories…all my memories, why are they so…?’

 

Dark? Wrong? Maybe because they’re finally documenting the truth, sweetheart.

 

‘What are you doing to me, John?’

 

Who says I’m doing anything?

 

‘Because those aren’t my memories, John. You’re changing me.’

 

Eye candy-

 

‘Leave me alone. Please. For a bit’.

 

But-

 

‘PLEASE.’

 

‘Who are you talking to, Ianto?’

 

SMASH.

 

Ianto looked down at the floor, jumping as he saw Jack approaching behind him. Shards of ceramics cluttered around him, from where he had dropped the cup, in shock.

 

‘Shit’, Ianto said, loudly, before kneeling down, his hands slick with water.

 

Jack regarded him, as Ianto found himself staring at Jack’s boots. Jack took his hands out from his pockets, and crossed them.

 

‘Taken to talking to yourself, eh?’ Jack said, softly.

 

‘Maybe, sir.’ Ianto muttered, unable to look Jack in the eyes. He saw Jacks boots move away from front of him, and being walking around him.

 

The heat of Jacks glaze scorched him, burnt him beyond repair; Ianto wanted to scream at Jack to go away.

 

Jack stopped. His face almost panicked. ‘Talk to me’.

 

Ianto halted, his face pale, as he looked at the shards. ‘What, sir?’

 

A flurry of shirt, and suddenly, Jack was kneeling right in front of him, the older man’s hand on Ianto’s chin.

 

Ianto found himself compelled to look at his Captain, his dashing lover.

 

‘Talk to me, Yan’, Jack pleaded, no longer hiding. He bent down further, to look deep into Ianto’s eyes. ‘Something…something’s been different, recently. I can feel it. I don’t like it.’

 

Ianto didn’t look away. ‘Life is unfair, Sir. You won’t always get things your way- elementary rule of living in the 21st century; you should know it by now.’

 

Jack felt his hands empty as Ianto moved away from him, trying to pick up the broken shards with his bare hands.

 

‘Ianto’, Jack said, looking at the pieces. ‘You’ll cut yourself.’

 

Tears rimmed Ianto’s eyes; he refused to let them fall. He didn’t understand anything anymore, his whole reason for being a total lie; without caution, Ianto found that he didn’t care if Jack saw him cr. He didn’t care if he punched Jack in the face, right now, and left him to pick up the pieces.

 

Because Jack had left Ianto in this abyss, for far too long. It was unbearable.

 

Ianto continued to pick up the ceramic pieces, ignoring Jack’s protests. Suddenly, Ianto found his hands – full of broken ceramic- covered back Jack’s own hands.

 

‘Stop it,’ Jack said, his voice low and racked. ‘I want to know what I did wrong. Why does it hurt you to look at me?’

 

In the end of the day, they all had their struggles; they all hated Jack some point…

 

And then Jack was in a corner of his office, all alone.

 

 

Ianto found himself squeezing Jack’s hands, the ceramics cutting into their skin. Jack didn’t cry out; neither did Ianto. The bleeding wasn’t enough.

 

‘I can’t do this anymore, Jack’, Ianto said, thickly. ‘Stop trying to understand me.’

 

‘Yan, look at me’, Ianto automatically obeyed his boss. Jack’s blue eyes seem too intense. ‘If I did that, then how would you understand me?’

 

Ianto gulped, feeling hot and shaking. ‘I don’t want to understand you. Then you’ll be human, and then it’ll be too hard.’

 

‘What will be too hard?’

 

Ianto felt a sharp pain in his hands, as Jack let go of it- scarlet liquid poured thinly; their blood moving in between the union. Ianto walked to the sink, and ran the cold tap; he closed his eyes, willing for peace.

 

Just a little peace of mind. This hurts too much.

 

He felt a pair of strong arms wind around his waist; he saw the bloodied hands on his suit…

 

….And he didn’t care.

 

‘Please let me help you’, Jack whispered deep into the whorls of Ianto’s ear. Ianto shivered as shots of pleasance ran through his body at the sound. ‘Don’t…do this. Just don’t hate me.’

 

Just don’t hate me.

Hate me.

Me.

Jack.

 

Without knowing what he was doing, Ianto quickly dipped Jacks hands into the cold water; Jack gasped at the sudden rush, and then turned around to pull Jack close. Ianto’s bloodied suit, their wet hands covering each others faces; the coldness of the water contrasting with the warmth of their rapid breaths and beating hearts.

 

Jack quickly reciprocated, winding his arm around Ianto’s shoulder, pulling at the back of Ianto’s head.

 

‘It hurts, Jack’, Ianto whimpered, quietly into Jack’s collar. ‘These memories…I’ve got memories that aren’t mine…they’re stealing you from me…’

 

Jack’s widened as he pulled away, brushing his lips along Ianto’s jaw quickly.

‘Then I’ll have to stop them from changing.’ Jack said, slowly. ‘Let me help you.’

 

Ianto looked at Jack, desperately wanting him, and wanting to explain. The harsh lines of the man that he had seen in the 51st century peeled away from this Jack Harkness, from his Jack Harkness. Now he saw the centre of a man who really did care.

 

‘Jack, there’s a lot I haven’t told you…’

 

‘Shh’, Jack said, covering Ianto’s mouth. ‘It can wait.’

 

They stood in silence, listening to the water gushing out of the tap, and myfanwy’s squeaking from above them, in another world from them.

 

‘I haven’t feed her yet’. Ianto mumbled. Jack smiled slightly, before thinking hard, putting his hand on the nape of Ianto’s neck, and looking at him.

 

He smiled sadly. ‘Why do I feel like I’m losing you, Yan?’ he said, softly, stroking Ianto’s ear.

 

Ianto gulped again. ‘My memories…they’re all wrong…’ he began.

 

Staring at the Welshman for the briefest of seconds, Jack slipped his hands to Ianto’s fingers, tugging slightly.

 

Ianto allowed himself to be lead, not leaving Jacks warm, liquid eyes. Too comforting.

 

‘Where are we going, Jack?’

 

Jack smiled at him, reassuringly.

 

‘To make new memories, Yan. It will do, for now’.

 

So what do you think? I feel sorry for people that read this series- I’ve just realised there’s hardly any good fluff in it, so I offered a bit of angsty fluff. Please remember I’ve just gotten over writer’s block here, and don’t be too hard on me! Also, I have a question…would anyone like a little smut in this series? Because the next chapter is going to be some of Ianto’s memories with Jack (which should take long), so I can put up a smutty spin off chapter with it, if anyone wants…it would be my first smut piece. Anyways, I’ll shut up, but people please comment!

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